I'll Die For You [Discontinued]

“Please stay longer Frank, don’t leave me” I begged

“I have to love. I have to go. They are calling me”

“Who?”

“The Angels”

“Are they pretty?”

“Not as much as you love”

“Then don’t listen to them, listen to me. Stay with me Frank”

“You can't have what you always want” he said holding me in his grasp. I hugged him back, holding him so that he never leaves me. I loved him so much, but I could never tell him that any longer. Tears formed in my eyes, transferring onto his shirt. Slowly I felt his touch fade. His beautiful face became paler and I knew he was leaving. He disappeared amidst the white mist and my mom’s endless screaming reached my ears, ordering me to get up

I opened my eyes to find myself in my room, clutching my pillows, like I was clutching Frank. I had again been dreaming of him. My irreplaceable love for him stopped me from accepting the truth that he was never coming back, that he was forever shut behind the doors of heaven, separating me from him undyingly.

“Alexandra, if you do not make your presence felt in the kitchen in another ten minutes, it may not be good for you.” Mom yelled again

I stared at my blank ceiling for a minute, watching Frank's face flash and then went into the kitchen, to the left of my room.

“Honey what has happened to you?” she asked concerned

I wanted to scream, snap, cry, pick up a knife and kill myself, to rid myself of all the miserable feelings inside. But I was helpless like a slaughter lamb. My only option was to put my head on the table and cry silently. Mom’s hands pushed through my hair, taking me into her comforting warm hug.

Frank's name escaped my lips and mom hugged me harder, painfully trying to calm me down. The horrible details of the accident that had torn me apart came back to me, Frank's eyes pierced into my heart, working like daggers. I had lied that I remembered nothing of what had happened, to lessen the pain, to fill the guilt inside me and no one else.

I felt her tears on my hands. I knew how hard it was for her to think that Frank was never going to come and tell her, how much he loved her daughter, or how beautiful he thought she looked. She was extremely fond of him as well, already treating him like a son in law. Everything had felt perfect, until he died. He was never coming back again. Never was I to hear his melodiously deep voice, never was I to hear that laugh, never was I going to feel his touch, never again was I to laugh.
I felt so fatigued. But I had to go to and change.

My whole room seemed to shed silent tears at his absence. Even the posters of our favourite bands seemed to mourn his death. The furniture prayed for his touch as cruelly as my body did. The gloom of the room signified my unhappiness. The curtains hadn’t been drawn for a week, making the room as cold as a chilly night, a retreat for all the creatures of the night.
Walking through the mess my room had become, I went to take a shower, letting the warm water pour on my cold body. I shivered reminiscing the times I had spent with Frank in that shower.
Shaking my head violently to get rid of those painful recollections, I forced myself out of the shower, hardly bothering about the clothes I wore.
After a small breakfast, much to my mother’s displeasure, I headed of to the cemetery. It was mocking as it was the very place I had met Frank for the first time and walking to his grave I felt like a ghost myself.

“To the most lovable boy, who graced our lives with his presence. A loving son, an affable friend and an angel sent from heaven, Frank Iero.”

I read it again and again, as tears blinded me. It was haunting, emotional, melancholic, hurtful, heart wrenching and confusing. Losing Frank was losing a part of me and I hated myself for letting that happen.
The rain began to trickle unwarned, on me as I looked up at the clouds that were letting go off their burden. I wished I could let go off all that I was holding as easily, but I didn’t want it all to go either.

“I will always love you Frank” I cried as my tears mixed with the rain, washing them off like a sin.

Living had just become a chore.

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i'm at work for the new one

it'll be up soon. dont worry.

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Title: I'll Die For YouChapter: Prologue
Part:2
Characters: Narrator (i. Alex), Kim,
Disclaimer: fake.
Dedication: Everyone who reads and comments ! <3
Kim for being an awesome Admin
All u lovely Tokio Hotel Fans
Bill and Tom




“Do I necessarily have to go to school ma?”

“I’m sorry hun, but you need to. The school has been open for a week and the teachers are all worried about you. It’s the beginning term sweetie, you can't miss too much” she told me calmly.

School meant hatred for me and with Frank's death it was even more hateful. People came up to me, telling me how sorry they were when they didn’t even have the remotest idea of how I felt. It drove me up the wall to hear their sympathizing words. I was fighting with my situation and those words were aggravating me.

I got past a huge crowd of students and into the class, hating every second that ticked by. Someone occupied my usual seat as also Frank's but thankfully Kim came to my rescue. She was my closest friend, hugging me and transferring all her warmth into my zombified body.
“Sit with me Alex” she said pulling my hand, leading me right behind my usual seat. As we passed, the person sitting on my seat said hi to Kim, in a masculine voice. It was a nasty shock, because I was thinking him to be a girl, and a beautiful one at that. Kim sweetly replied and then turned to the other one saying hi to him as well. She decided that it was necessary for me to know the two new kids. I don’t know what gave her he idea because I neither cared nor was I interested, but she introduced us nonetheless.

“This is Tom” she said for the one with dreaded hair, which looked more like tentacle les sprouting out from his cap. “And this is his twin, Bill”

I was stoned, not only was she forcing an introduction on me, making me look foolish in my own eyes, for thinking Bill to be a girl and for finding Tom’s hair like tentacles, but she was also telling me that they were identical twins!

“Hi” I replied dryly, throwing my bag on the side of my desk. I felt three pairs of eyes follow my every move. Kim kept on talking to the twins, while I put my head down. They had an accent to their English, so I presumed they were not Americans
A little while later I heard our vice principal announce that our class was dismissed since the teacher was unavailable.

Everyone cheered as I got up to sneak out of the room.

“Alex! Wait for me!” Kim called “God what is up with you?”

“Nothing”

“Anyway, don’t you think the twins a re good looking. They are really sweet guys as well –

“JESUS CHRIST KIM DOES IT LOOK LIKE I CARE? I LOST Frank A WEEK AGO; DO YOU THINKK IT REALLY MATTERS IF THE TWINS ARE HOT OR NOT? He haunts me Kim, he’s everywhere I look, I feel him around me day and night and you think I will find those two cute?”

I felt ashamed the moment I shut my mouth. I had no right to scream at Kim. She was the only one I had ever trusted, but asking me how I thought the twins were, made me mad.

“I am sorry Kim, I didn’t –“
“Don’t Alex” she said hugging me. “I was being foolish, I should’ve realized. It’s just hard to think that Frank is never coming back.”

We both were on the empty corridor, hugging each other, when principal Maple called me into her office. I knew what was coming next. She wanted me to take Frank’s stuff, because his mother thought it more appropriate that I take it.

“I am sorry for your loss Alexandra, take care of yourself”

I nodded with a stiffened jaw line, and left, as Kim already had the box in her hand. It was hard hitting to see the principal say such things, because Frank and I had been her permanent eye sores for the numerous fights we got into with the bullies. I felt so weak after exiting her room. Sitting on the couch opposite her room, I started to cry, feeling Kim’s body close by me. I could feel her tremble from crying as well, but I didn’t have the courage to look at her.



*Kim’s POV*

I didn’t realize that tears were flowing down endlessly; looking at all the recognizable things that were Frank’s I saw the cd I had given to him on his last birthday. He had written the biggest thank you card to me for giving him that cd. I still had it, now hidden inside my cupboard.

I swallowed past a lump in my throat, and looked up to see Bill staring in our direction from the other end. I shook my head, shrugging and then went down on my knees to help Alex.

“Let’s go hun”

She nodded and led me to her locker, where I kept the box carefully. I was glad for being by her side, because if I couldn’t stay by her, no one else could.

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writing this actually made me sad because before bill i was in love with frank iero. not tht i am not now, but i felt really sad writing this chapter.

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^^ no problem at all.

writing this actually made me sad because before bill i was in love with frank iero. not tht i am not now, but i felt really sad writing this chapter.

awhhhh it'll all get better in time (:

really sweet

aaaa this chappie is really emotional

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thank you guys....i post the next chapter as soon as possible

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Part : 3
Dedication : luana, Kim, [-rejxil.TH-]. thank you for reading it!

enjoy it!
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Looking at all of Frank's belongings, I cried, remembering our time together. I put the box in my cupboard, burying it under the depth of my clothes and got ready for another day at school. Kim came by to pick me up. Mom was so delighted to see her there, since she hadn’t ever since the funeral.
We left after a small breakfast, much to my mother’s disapproval, because she didn’t like the speed at which I was losing my weight. My shirt was almost hanging from my body and my jeans seemed 2 inches loose. I had never been the skinny type, nor did I have any wonderfully amazing features that could attract instant attraction. I was plain, simple and black. The only part of me that I loved to flaunt was my hair and my eyes. That is all I could be loved for.

We made our way to the hell gates and saw the faces I loathed the most.

“Oh look! The ball of fury is coming, everybody run” Eddie mocked, trying to act like a scared 5 year old girl.
I wanted to punch him in the face, but Kim kept a strong hold on me. She had a tough build, and I hardly had any energy to fight her strength back.

“You were always a wimp Alex, putting your Frankie boy in the front and hiding behind him. Now that he is dead, you can't run away from me can you?” he nastily derided.

“Buzz off Eddie” Kim retorted, pulling me back into the school.

I yelled at her for stopping me from hurting him. It was over powering. I wanted to distort ever feature that Eddie was ever proud of. How dare he mention Frank's name from his unworthy lips, how dare he call me a wimp!
Kim tried to tell me that it wasn’t worth getting into a fight with Eddie, but I wasn’t ready to hear that. I walked off frowning, with Kim running behind me.

“Everything will be fine Alex, give it some time”

Everything was not going to be fine, I wanted to snap, and nothing was ever going to be normal again. But I held back my reply. I didn’t want to lose Kim as a friend; she was the only one, apart from two other people, who fully understood me and my ways.
She gave me a hug and we walked to the locker.



Kim’s *POV*

I wanted to claw Eddie for all that he was barking about Frank and Alex, but I knew if I did that, then Alex would eat him alive, so I focused on keeping her in control. She was fighting hard, to let loose, but I had to keep her away from that lot, at least for that time.

“Buzz off Eddie” I yelled and dragged her inside the corridor. I was expecting her to scream but she didn’t, and I gave her hug, telling her things would be fine. Luckily, the Kaulitz twins came by at that time. I thought it to be a good distraction and pulling away from Alex I said hi

“Hi” Bill replied sweetly, Alex too said hi although it was much duller than the ones I was used to. Tom said nothing, but just looked in my direction. I saw the smile he wanted to give in his eyes and I smiled back.

Faintly I heard Alex say a goodbye, and I surfaced out of my daze. It was confusing to realize what had just happened, because to put it accurately, I had lost myself in Tom's eyes and not become conscious of Alex’s departure. I turned around to return her bye, but she had already left. I had even forgotten her first class!

I turned back to the twins. “So what is your first class?”

“I think music” Bill replied

“Ha, you’d be the first people to take music in this school for the past 5 years. No one takes music here”

“Is it so bad?”

“No, the music students are free to do what they want, because we have no teacher as per say. You need to know the instruments to play here”

“That we do” Tom replied. Somehow the idea of him being a hip hop fan and still playing the guitar struck as kind of strange, yet really cool.

The bell signaling the beginning of class rang and we went in our respective directions. Tom looked at me again, the same way he had in the beginning before turning, making me blush. I got an odd feeling in my stomach and went into my class, forgetting all about my bitter experience I had in the morning.




Bill's *POV*

I gave my brother a look as he went onto flirt with Kim again. He never seemed to get enough of girls, but this time I had to credit him for flirting with a decent one. I shook my head and watched Kim turn as we both went to the basement, where the music room was.
Tom started to speak

“Can you not think about that girl?”

“Who?” I pretended

He stared at me with a raised brow. He knew that I was thinking about Alexandra and there was no way I could fool him into thinking otherwise.

“Okay fine I am so?”

“You like her”

“I don’t Tom, I just met her yesterday”

“You like her” he chanted, until it began to piss me off.
“I wasn’t the one flirting with eyes at least!” I retorted

“It’s hot to flirt with eyes and I flirt with any girl Bill, it’s not necessary I like her, but you like that girl”

“Shut up”

I opened the door to the room and saw her seated on the chair, playing the guitar. It was a familiar tune, green day I think, and she seemed to be lost in it.
She looked up with her capturing eyes, but avoided looking at me. I don’t know why she did that, but she only looked at Tom.

“So I guess we’ll be in the same music classes” he said

She nodded and stared at the white guitar, in her hands.

“You play the guitar, I suppose then”

She nodded again and touched the chords, playing wake me up, when September ends. I closed my eyes and waited for the music to sink in, adjusting my voice to the octave.

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends

Like my fathers come to pass
Seven years has gone so fast
Wake me up when September ends

Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars
Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are

As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost
Wake me up when September ends

She stopped playing and ran outside. I saw that pain again in her eyes, like yesterday. Even with her eyes closed I could feel their depth. Tom had stopped playing as well and gazed at the door, behind which Alex had vanished.

“You should check on her” he said to me

I looked in that direction apprehensively; thankfully she came in, wiping her eyes.

She apologized for running midway, and sat down with the guitar in hand again.

“You sing really well” she complemented “it’s much higher than I expected it to be”

“Thanks, are you alright?”
She reassuringly smiled at me, her eyes asking me not to ask her that again. I smiled back and changed the topic to music again. Everything seemed alright, yet I felt turmoil inside me, a feeling I didn’t want to feel. An emotion that worried me a lot. But what it was, I was yet to find that out.

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Kim and Tom XD flirting with their eyes XD

I hope Alex will be ok

Bill : An emotion that worried me a lot. << just love that part

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i hope tom wont use me but we're flirting xD


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Title: I'll Die For YouChapter: Prologue
Part:4
Characters: Narrator (i. Alex), Kim, Tom, Bill
Disclaimer: fake.
Dedication: KIM, LUANA, RACHEL, Tokio hotel 4 ever, Bill an Tom kaulitz

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“So how was your day?” Kim asked over the phone

I gave a few details and she completely flipped when I told her about the music class

“Oh cool, now you can have a band of your own”

“Please Kimmy; I have enough on my mind to care about any band”

I was simultaneously checking my mail and my heart stopped beating when I saw Gerard's mail. I hung up on Kim, because I was not ready to cry on the phone.

Gerard was like a big brother to me. Him and his younger brother had been Frank's best friends and later became mine too and I loved both of them to death. The accident hadn’t taken place far from the way house, so a part of Gerard blamed himself for not stopping us from going. I opened him mail, written in small italic font.

Dear Alex, we’re fine here, been missing you a lot. Mikey and I are very worried about you, please do take care of yourself. And angel, please don’t cry, cause Frank wouldn’t want you to. Pray for his soul from our side too, and keep flowers on his grave from our side too, if you could. I am sorry we aren’t there with you, when we should be. Life can sometimes be such a bitch. Mikey gives you a flying kiss from here, hope you get it, before someone steals it. Say hello to your mum, and Mrs. Iero as well. We’ll keep in touch, gotta go now.

Love Gee and Mikey

I broke down crying once more, reading his mail again and again. I despised god for taking away three of the most loved people away from me, and one of them was never coming back.. Gerard and Mikey may be in Italy, but at least they were alive and safe. I wrote back a small reply telling whatever has happened in the past 10 days and went to bed, for a disturbed night ahead.


“Hello love how are we doing tonight?” Frank's familiar voice asked

I searched for him in the while scentless smoke and finally found him seated on a bench against a white backdrop.

“I miss you” I replied sitting next to him

“There is no need to, you have fiends don’t you?”

“I have no one except for Kim”

“What about Tom and Bill, they are friends. You have so much in common”

“They aren’t friends Frank”

“Not yet, but they can be”

“I don’t know”

“Drop your guard angel; you know I’m always there with you”
He kissed me on the right cheek, and I woke up with the sun glaring into my room through the window.

It was just another day, with nothing to look forward to. I got dressed and waited for Kim to come. She came late, so we had to run to school to make it in time, a time which really wasn’t the best of all.

A huge crowd gathered on the front steps of the school, blocking our way inside. The louds chants for eddie told me that things couldn’t be too good – there was a good chance he again was bullying someone, Kim and I pushed through the people and more to her horror than mine, we saw Tom lying in a very crooked position and eddie wqas standing on one side. Bill was nowhere to be seen.

“Alex! Do something!” Kim wailed a bit

“What do you want me to do? He’s a togh guy, o s he pretends to be, hje can get himself out of this!”

“He’s bleeding Alex; you can't just leave without doing anything! Remember when you stopped him from bullying me? Frank would’ve helped Tom, Alex, you know you want to help too”

I looked at Tom and then at Eddie. Every single thing that bastard had barked yesterday cam back to me. Was I really a wimp, hiding behind Frank's shadow?

NO, a voice inside me yelled and instead of retreating into the crowd, I pushed through and stood in the centre of all the commotion

“Oh look who we have here” eddie snarled “Couldn’t have begun the real fun without you, really”

“Let him go” I said waling closer to eddie, hatred vibrating through my body, venom pumping in my veins.

“Whatcha gonna do if I don’t?”

“Let him go” I repeated threateningly, my voice being close to a hoarse whisper
Eddie lessened the distance between us, leaving an inch of space and I shot him a nasty glance.

“You saved me work, bastard” I retorted and kicked him where it hurt the most.
I heard a collective gasp, and then they all broke into a cheer. Kim went over to Tom, and Bill too came rushing in, when a bit of the crowd had dispersed.

It satisfied me to see Eddie on the ground howling with pain. I gave him another hit to his side.
“That’s for insulting Frank” and another punch “That is for calling me a wimp”
I walked off in pride and over to Kim, who was helping Tom up



Bill’s *POV*


My jaw dropped when I saw Tom on the floor and Alex challenging that massive dude. I had left that idiot for one minute! Just one minute and he landed himself in trouble again! I tried to push through the crowd, but couldn’t even move my own ass from there. In a matter of seconds Alex kicked his balls, making him go down onto the floor. I gasped so hard. It must have really hurt him, but he deserved it for hurting Tom. All around people decide that the show was over, so they started going inside the school. I made my way to Tom. Kim was already patching him up. It was his luck that Alex was there to save his ass, or else god knows what he would’ve done to him! Kim did all she could to stop the bleeding from his cut. While she did that, I looked over at Alex. She gave the boy on the floor another kick and a punch before coming over to us. Tom was up on his feet by then. I too got up, not able to look in ay direction but hers.

“You’re a life saver dude!” Tom croaked

“And you are a 6 ft. tall guy! Explain to me why all that happened will you?” Alex demanded off him.

I intervened “He tried to flirt with that guy’s girlfriend yesterday”

Kim laughed, holding her stomach “Rule no. I Tom, don’t mess with the popular guys, especially by not flirting the girls”

I laughed along, because my brother was as innocent inside as he tried to be a bastard on the outside. He pretended to be bad ass, and ended up looking like a scared kid

“Oh snap” Alex said and I looked around to see the cause for such reaction. Tucking her hair behind her ears, she looked at principal maple. She looked pretty with her bangs falling forward, only if she opened her hair, instead of tying them up, her hairstyle would be the same as mine.

Principal Maple looked at both Tom and Alex and asked them to follow her


Tom’s *POV*


“You’re a life saver dude!” I croaked to Alex hardly able to speak. The cut o my cheek was killing me, but Kim had done a good job to stop the bleeding. I wonder where she got all the medical stuff! I glanced at Bill, who couldn’t get his eyes off Alex; it made me want to laugh.

“And you are a 6 ft. tall guy! Explain to me why all that happened will you?” she demanded

Before I could say anything, Bill answered for me, and I wanted to tackle him to the ground for saying what he did. For heavens sake I didn’t flirt with that girl, she flirted with me! I held my reins for the time being, I had another 18 hours to punch him at home anyway.

Kim suggested that I keep away from those guys ad I gladly took it.

“Oh snap!” Alex said, as Principal asked us to see her in the room. We followed her, not talking at all. My face hung like it had been snapped into two, I don’t know why though

“Ms. Williams, this type of behavior was not tolerated last year, nor will it be this year.” She said to Alex

“You know my reply principal maple, it hasn’t changed a bit”

“You need to realize Alex; it’s the authorities who need to tackle bullying, not you.”

“No Principal maple, its Eddie, I need to tackle”

“We will talk off this later, but before that Mr. Kaulitz I require you to give us your statement so that action can be done against Mr. Stumps”

I told her secretary every detail; I could and then waited outside as instructed. Few minutes later Alex came out.

“Is everything cool?”

“Just detention.”

ohhh reallyy sweet kim patching Tom ... very nice of you kimm

“You’re a life saver dude!” <-- Tom to kim

Kim had done a good job to stop the bleeding. I wonder where she got all the medical stuff! <-- Just tell him Kim for him you do everything

Thanks sweety for the story
Write morreee :D

shit i forgot to dedicate....gotta edit!

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