Not any more.

aaaaaaa gr8 gr8 very discriptive it shows how much he cares for her awwwwwwwww bill is such a sweetie in this XD im happy that tom got this girl ......... cause now she has billll awwwwwwww.gr8 story cnt wait for more

Here goes.. i hope you enjoy it.
Chapter 10 – The diary.

“I.. I was.. “ she couldn’t say it, but she wanted to.. She knew exactly what she could do, she took her diary and looked for a page as Bill waited patiently, but confused. She handed it to him, scared. She had never let anyone touch her diary, but she had to this time.
He took it and read it slowly;
(SHE/HER = her mom)

“I can’t live like this, ill never forget the horror of that night.. I couldn’t run fast enough, I tried to.. I can’t go out anymore. Everywhere I go I can see him, watching me, still trying to finish what he started.. he got so close last time, what if I had got pregnant if he did it?? I was so scared..
SHE wasn’t much help anyway, all she told me was to shut up or people might think im some kind of disgrace to the family.. What family? Dads been gone for two years now.. I wish he was still here..
At least maybe he could have helped me, not like HER!! She’s such a bitch!”

It went on and on, and Bill kept reading.

“its 2 in the morning, and I just had another nightmare! It was him again, he was running after me again.. and his hands.. his hands.. i couldn’t stop him! This is driving me crazy, I’ve got to run away.. get away from all of them.. from him.. Who am I kidding? He’ll find me again, like he did here. I might as well just give up, give up on everything, maybe even my life..”

Bill turned over the page, but by mistake, turned two instead of one, and this is what he read -

“I swear, all SHE lives for is to torture me! When will she stop judging me?! I’ll never be free, and I’ll never be able to meet Bill.. Never, hope is useless.. No one understands me, they just think I like Bill like all the other fans do, all they say is stuff like “he’s hot” and stuff. I’m not like that.. I listen to the lyrics.. I can tell he’s different, its not just about getting a girl and having fun. He’s got real feelings, but i ll never get to meet him.. even if I do, he’ll probably just think I’m an other fan who thinks ‘he’s hot’.”
A small reddish brown smudge could be seen followed by more writing..
“Shit, my wrists really hurt.. Maybe I should have gone deeper and-”

Bill couldn’t believe it, he tried to keep reading but Keerah suddenly realized it was the wrong page, and snatched it back. “wrong page..” she said, shocked and embarrassed, she felt so stupid… She scanned the page quickly.. “oh god.. how far did you read?” she asked not really wanting to hear the answer.
Bill looked at her, “Why would you mention me..” he started then tried to rephrase it “I mean, diaries are supposed to be very personal..” did he really mean that much to her? She put the diary back in the bag, and tried to find the answer..
Bill suddenly remembered the first part she let him read and instantly the subject changed “how could anyone do that to you.. god, I mean, what a shit head, why do guys do that!” He couldn’t find the right words for it, anger filled him, he couldn’t explain it, and worse, he didn’t know what to do to help her in any way.
She lowered her head and shivered, cold and scared as she remembered him..
On instinct he took her hand again.. “I don’t know what to say.. except for one thing. There is no way you can change the past, but I can change your present and future..”
Keerah looked at him, absolutely confused, she was just about to ask ‘how’ when he cut her off, with three words..

PLS let those three words be 'I LOVE YOU!"

i read all of it all all all of it and i love every single word of it <3 <3 you're such a great writer your words are very realistic and so are the feelings in the story.... pls post more, so think hit me about what she left written on the note when she left home <3

huugzzzzzz

maybe they are maybe not.. hmmm.. you'll see. i'll post more when i got enough comments..
god i love teasing you guys!

pls continue its sooo an emotional story damn... i really like it

and pls continue it cos its getting reallly curious

pls guys comment so that she will continue

Das war sehr schön und sehr emotional. Ich weiß, wie sie sich fühlt und dass ist warum liebe ich diese fanfic so viel. Dein fanfic ist wirklich realistisch, absolut toll!! Du hast meine volle Aufmerksamkeit mit diesem!! Ich liebe es und Ich hoffe, dass Du bald schreibst mehr!

Lol my grampy would be so proud of my German, he always wanted us to learn our language

Translation (roughly, it's not word for word cos that would make it unreadable lol): That was very beautiful and very emotional. I know how she feels and that is why I love this fanfic so much. Your fanfic is really realistic, absolutely fantastic! You have my full attention with this! I love it and I hope that you write more soon!

oh well.. i guess its time to give a lil more, dont you think?

Chapter 11 – Stay with me

“Stay with me” he said.
She blinked. Her brain took about ten seconds to process it.. Had she heard him right? “w.. wha-?” she couldn’t believe it. This couldn’t be happening..
Bill smiled slightly “Don’t faint again..” he half-joked, and was glad to see her smile – only slightly- but it was still a smile.
She nodded and then shook her head.. “this isn’t happening.. I’ve gone mad.. Nothing is ever this good, stuff like this doesn’t happen.. Not to me anyway. This is- this is-” she started to talk a lot, getting extremely nervous, unable to believe it.
She made an attempt to get up, but instantly felt Bill’s dainty, yet strong fingers enclose around her arm, pulling her back down,
“Stay” he said again, looking in her eyes again..
She shook her head, certain she was insane. This was absolutely impossible. Either she was going to find herself in a mental hospital, or worse, she would wake up in her room, and still be among everything she hated and feared.
“Please.. please.. this can’t be true” she begged.
Bill couldn’t understand, his hand slid from her arms, heading to her hands, but stopped as he touched her wrists and he saw her expression, she bit her lip. It had hurt, the wounds were only about 4 hours old.
He pulled the glove off, revealing cut after cut after cut, some of them were scars, and over them there were more cuts.
“Oh goddamn it, why would you do something like this to yourself!” he said trying to hide his anger. Truth was he could understand why she would do that, but she was so precious to him and any type of harm done to her, was the worst thing ever in his opinion. He just couldn’t accept it.
She couldn’t believe it “You of all people.. I thought you would understand” she whispered, hurt.
“I do, I do, but please.. don’t anymore” He said, and, knowing her weakness he looked in her eyes, hoping it would work.
She looked away, “I have to go” she said, but he instantly pulled her closer, “No.” he said decisively, then his voice softened “Stay here.. stay..” he took a deep breath.. “with me”
She hesitated, she could smell him, he was so close. She closed her eyes, barely able to think about it. Bill took a deep breath “for me” he insisted softy.
She leaned against the wall, and nodded “I’ll stay” she whispered.

Oh Dank-Gott er sagte nicht, dass 'Ich liebe Dich', es ist zu bald für ihn, um dass zu sagen! Bill ist so süß und sorgsam im dieser, fast wie ist er wirklich!!! Dass ist warum liebe ich ihn so viel! Sehr gut fanfic, naturlich aber Du wisst dass! Ich kann nicht auf mehr warten!!

Translation: Oh thank god he didn't say 'I love you', it is too soon for him to say that! Bill is so cute and caring in this, almost like he really is! That is why I love him so much! Very good fanfic of course, but you know this! I can't wait for more

oh gott

This fan fic is rly addictive, it has such beautiful words and i can even relate to some of it =[

mehr when you can =]

Chapter 12 -Getting to know each other

Bill smiled at her, happy. “So.. back to me in the diary..” he said hoping to maybe make her smile a little. And she did.. “that was embarrassing.. Another reason to never let anyone have my diary..” she said, and he instantly replied “So.. I’m not.. what was it?.. hot?” he asked again. The aim was to make her feel better, but after the words slipped out of his mouth, he realized that he was actually interested in knowing.. “well.. i..” she shrugged “umm..” He grinned “ok.. relax, I was just kidding” he said, immediately getting a playful slap on the arm from Keerah. “Hey!” he said, pretending to be hurt and to slap her back. “Ouch” he said. “Stop it” she said half laughing then whispered “I would never hurt you” without thinking. He looked at her, “come on, let’s.. go somewhere” he said, taking her by the hand and helping her up.
Relieved he didn’t comment on it, she nodded and asked him where they were going.
Bill shrugged “I don’t know.. just out..”
She was slowly starting to accept that this might actually be reality and that she really was with him. “Just a sec.” he said, and disappeared in one of the rooms. She looked in a mirror in the corridor and wiped off the lipstick.
Bill came back in about 5 minutes wearing a different top and a Faith cap. He noticed the missing lipstick, “much better” he said and winked, making her insides feel like they were melting. “Thanks” As they walked out of the hotel room, Bill talked to the bodyguard, who stayed where he was.
The two walked towards the elevator and he pressed the number to the lobby and right before the doors parted, Bill put on a large pair of sunglasses. He saw her looking at him “I want you to have my undivided attention” he explained, making her smile again.
They went out and started walking slowly in a sort of park nearby… they talked about everything and anything, about flowers they passed, she told him how she preferred rainy weather to sunny. She also told him about Malta, where she was really from before her dad had died, and her mom had moved them all to Germany. She preferred it to Malta, as it didn’t have nearly as much sunshine, but she missed all her friends.. They shared more facts about themselves, and laughed at times.

(this chapter isnt all that nice.. but the next one made me laugh when i wrote it. to get it, you guys know what to do.)

Sehr gut! Ich liebte es wie gewöhnlich. Ich kann nicht auf mehr warten besonders, wenn es komisch ist!!

Translation: Very good. I loved it as usual. I can't wait for more especially if it is funny!!

Chapter 13 – “Get outta there, gals!”
She looked up at him “when I was a little girl, I tried a million times to stop biting my nails, and I never could.. then I read that you hated it when girls bite their nails and I just kinda.. stopped. I didn’t do it on purpose, but after that, biting my nails just seemed wrong..” she tried to imagine what he must have thought she was.. like some type of crazy fan “urghh.. I must sound like a lunatic” she said
He shrugged “I think it’s sweet..” he said, “I did do stuff like that for Nena, like waiting in the rain for hours just to get her autograph” he said ad she laughed with him.
She looked around “did you hear that?” she asked
Bill shook his head “no, what?” Suddenly there were flashes from cameras, and half a dozen men started running after them with cameras and microphones. As a couple of girls saw this they recognized him.
“BILL!! ITS HIM!!”
Keerah looked at Bill “that’s what!”
Bill took her hand in his and pulled her with him as he started to run away, from all the cameras and stuff.
After about ten minutes of constant running, they slipped into a dark alley. “Fuck, I hate paparazzi!” he said. “I think I do too” she said as they hid in one of the cubicles of the girls’ bathroom of some old bar. The second they got in, a pungent disgusting smell filled their nostrils.
He smiled at her, one arm on each side of her shoulders.
“Although..” he said tilting her head slightly closer to his “being chased by paparazzi can have its advantages..”. Keerah looked at him, her heart pounding as if trying to break free of her ribcage, and the next thing she knew was feeling his lips press against hers for a few seconds. She kissed him back, parting her lips. Bill pressed a little more, his tongue then meeting hers as they kissed.
She started to feel weak again, her knees almost giving way, but instead of giving in to fainting, she slipped one arm around his neck and the other around his waist for support.
He smiled slightly throughout the kiss, and was ready to keep kissing her for a REALLY long time but alas.. There was a sharp knock on the door and a rough voice was heard.
“Hey.. ah sah ya gals comin’ in ‘ere. This ain’t nah one ah those lezzie Bars, so y’all can jus’ getcha own place!”
Bill narrowed his eyes, as Keerah burst into a fit of giggles, then got serious and replied angrily “oh my god.. What is wrong with you people?!! It’s not a girl!! So stop calling him that! Get over it!” she yelled.
The door slammed as the woman left, and Keerah turned to Bill again. She found him staring at her with one eyebrow raised “Damn..” he exclaimed in an impressed tone “no one calls me a girl when you’re around..” he said. She shrugged “I’m just sick of people sick of people calling you that, or calling you gay! Its like they have nothing else to do and it just kinda gets to me” “Kinda?? “ he teased, playing with a strand of her hair. She smiled, watching his fingers twirl around her long straight black hair, and felt four finger tips on her cheek “you’re beautiful” he whispered and smiled.
She bit her lower lip, still doubting that this could be for real, her heart wanted to believe it, to indulge in anything Bill had to offer to her, but she had learnt not to dream. Luckily he understood, and said “Come on, lets go eat.. We could either go somewhere and risk the paparazzi or play it safe and order room service”. She nodded, “all I know is that we better get out of here befo-”
“Aye thought aye told y’all tah get outta here or aye m callin’ the cops!”
“Ok ok” Keerah said resignedly and started to unlock the door, Bill called out “fine!”, and they got out of the cubicle, facing a huge, ugly hairy woman.. or was it a man?..
What ever it was, ‘it’ had a mustache, and she eyed them from head to toe “hah! Tryna fool meh, ‘nto thinkin’ one o’ y’all ‘s a man! Aye know what a man looks like!” she left, and Keerah instantly said “yeah, you are one!” but luckily she didn’t hear her. Bill narrowed his eyes “Bitch” he said and Keerah put one finger on her lips, motioning for him to be quiet “Shut up, or she ll get you!” she joked.
He grinned “Come on lets go eat, I am starving”

Heh, dass war komisch!! Schlampe, Bill ist nicht ein Mädchen, duh! Ich hasse sie! Ich kann nicht auf mehr warten!! Dein fanfic ist sehr cool!

(heh that was funny! Bitch, Bill isn't a girl, duh! I hate her! I cant wait for more! Your fanfic is really cool!)

Chapter 14 – Pleasures of life
Back in the room, Bill closed the door and picked up the phone, and called room service. “Hallo, ja, Ohm.. ich mochte ein groBe Hamburger und zwei Redbull, und ohm.. ein moment bitte,” he looked at her, “what about you?” he asked “vegetarian salad please” she said “und ein vegiterian salat bitte. Ja, zimmer 483, Ja. Danke.” He hung up and she smiled “Deutsch..?” He nodded “Do you speak it?”
“umm..” she said with difficulty “Ich weiss nur ein bisschen Deutsch” (I know only a bit of German)
He grinned “that was pretty good” he said as he sat on the couch, and motioned for her to join him. He smiled as she walked over and sat beside him, but not too close as she was still extremely shy. “What else can you say?” he questioned.. she shrugged “Ich lie-” she bit her lip, and it was like she just got a cold shower as she realized what she was about to say. She burrowed through her mind searching desperately for something else to say.
Meanwhile Bill was watching her with interest, playing with his tongue piercing, feeling it click with every one of his teeth. She tried to change it to “ich bin in einem Hotel”. “Sehr gut” he said encouragingly. The doorbell rang and a timid voice called ‘room service’. Bill got up and opened the door, when the girl entered with a tray of food. As soon as she looked at him she started giggling.. “omg omg omg Oh mein gott!! Tokio Hotel!!” she got out a pen and paper and asked for his autograph, which he signed quickly, smiled, tipped her and then she left.
“Wow..” she said “I thought she was going to go crazy or faint” He smirked “no that’s your job” he teased, sitting back next to her and uncovering the food.
Without warning, the front door opened, and Tom entered with a girl. Bill raised an eyebrow “why am I not surprised?” he commented. Tom grinned cheekily and lead the girl to another room.
The hamburger Bill had ordered was large, but he nearly attacked it, in contrast to Keerah, who was nibbling quietly on her salad. “So the rumors are true..” she commented teasingly “you do love your food” He nodded eagerly, swallowed and smiled “love food, I mean why not? It’s one of the .. how do I say it.. pleasures of life” he finished grinning.
“OH MEIN GOTT!!”
Keerah’s eyes widened as she looked at the closed door behind them, after a split second, it continued.
“OH, TOM!! MEHR!! MEHR!”
Keerah tried to hold back laughter as she realized what was going on “Speaking of pleasures of life..” she said “she’s enjoying some too..” Bill shook his head “that’s just sick, what he does to girls..”
The screaming continued and Bill got up “Come on” he said pulling her with him and leading her out of the room..
“Where to?” she said “out?” “Nein.. I’ve got somewhere else in mind” he said mysteriously as he led her up some stairs. “You’ll see”. As they walked though some old corridor, it was getting darker and darker.
They soon came to an old rusted metal door, and she felt his fingers cover her eyes. She heard a door creak and a cold breeze met her skin. He led her thought the door, and a little further then released her. “Open your eyes” he whispered in her ear, and she obeyed.

Das ist für Tom so typisch! Ein anderer guter Kapitel! Liebte es!

Me >> yeah it is typical of tom to do that

Tom; damn she figured me out>>

Bill; i told u tom, its like so typical! haha i win - happy dance >>>

George - this is what u look like dancing, bil >>
You guys cut it out or ill use u instead of my drums and do this >>




dont ask.. just felt like putting it in.. hihi

ill post mine when you post yours ok?
muhahahah..

*gasp* you are evil I should have Unbelievable up tonight though so XP

Lol I love that thing you posted, yes Tom, I figured you out

dedicated specially to Chloe!

Chapter 15 - on ther roof

It was the roof. She gasped softly “It’s beautiful” she said, looking up. There were so many stars. “This is where I come up to think.. Sometimes.. I write songs here... poems…” he said, his voice soft as if scared that any noise might ruin the moment. He hooked one finger with one of hers, and led her to a corner. They sat down, not too close to each other, and gazed at the stars together without a word. There was no need for words, they had all the communication they needed. Her left hand was flat on the cold ground, and his right hand covering it. Her skin tingled when he touched her.
Somehow not even the cars honking below could be heard, or the flaps of the occasional bats, or any rustle of dead leaves being moved by wind. (Not even Tom and the girl.) Everything seemed to be still.

“Until yesterday I thought that I would never see anything as beautiful” he revealed, breaking the silence. “But today.. I’m looking at you”.
The silence was broken, but not only by his words. His heart pounded and hers raced. Without warning he pulled her closer, and their lips locked. It wasn’t a kiss like the ones you see in movies. It wasn’t sexual, and it didn’t hide anything. It purely showed what he felt for her and what she felt back. It was the type of experience she knew she could never forget, not in a million years. No one could ever make her feel this way, she felt protected, cared for, and wanted for who she was not for the way she looked.
She felt like she was the only one, and so did he. As far as he was concerned no one could ever replace her.
He slid his hand up her back to the back of her head and neck, keeping her close to him, and it seemed to last forever until they broke apart and she smiled at him.
Her smile was real, not a single part of it was faked in any way. She rested her head on his chest, his arm around her shoulders, protecting her from the cold air surrounding them. “I’m scared..” she whispered “Why?” “I’m scared I’ll wake up and you wont be here.. I’m scared that none of this ever happened” Bill pulled her closer “Don’t think that.. in any case that would be my loss” he kissed the top of her head.
Suddenly the door slammed and Bill swore. “What?” she asked.
“The fucking door doesn’t open from the outside.. We’re locked.” He said, looking for something. “I didn’t even bring my phone with me.. shit”
She sighed “I thought you said you liked it up here? What’s wrong with staying?”
He looked at her, and shrugged “not much.. ok.. were camping here tonight” he grinned.
She looked up at the sky, and only saw half the stars.. “Bill..”
“What?” he looked up too “That’s what’s wrong with staying here..” he said as it started to rain. It was just a few drops here and there at first, but in about 5 minutes it was raining heavily and there was no where they could go. They huddled together, keeping each other warm. It didn’t look like a very good night, but for her it was enough just to be with him.

Dass war so romantisch!!! Sehr schön und sehr gut schreiben. Ein anderer guter Kapitel! Liebte es! Danke, um dieses Kapitel mir zu widmen!!

(That was so romantic! Very beautiful and very well written. Another good chapter! Loved it! Thanks for dedicated this chapter to me!!)

ur welcome. now there is only one chapter left.. so i need a lot of comments before i end this story..

meeeeeeeeeeee wantsssssssss moreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!
i just love this story
LOVE ITTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!

mehr mehr bitteeeeeeeeeee

uffiz i dont want this fan fic to end... it's really nice =[[

but i want more xD when you can =]

plsss write more i <3 this fanfiction
when you can pls continue it

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last night i spent like 2 hrs[[at midnight]] and i was dead tired but i could'nt stop reading this fan fiction.. its awesome. I read it all from the beginning till the end and i can tell u its beautiful.

now im waiting anxiously for the last chap to come up.. please please post it soon.

[[P.S. U are a gr8 writer ]]