Cry A River

Subject: Cry A River Wed Nov 12 2008, 01:35

[x]Gustav Schäfer[x] Cry A River [x]One Shot[x]

"Bel," Bill hissed into his cell phone, "We need you Gusti's still zombed out."

The girl sighed at the other side of the line.

She hated seeing Gustav beat himself up over anything.

"I'll be right there Bill."

"Dankeschön."

The line went dead at both ends and seventeen year old Ezabel grabbed her bag before leaving her house; it would take her at least ten minutes to get to their apartment.

She didn't care whether or not she had to run there.

Ezabel nearly had a heart attack when she found out that Gustav literally got himself and two other persons into a Tram crash. She did not know what was going through his mind at all. She thanked the Lord for their survival; but Gustav never left his room after getting into his apartment.

Did he feel guilt?

Or was he down because he hadn't managed to kill himself.

Ezabel nearly screamed, just by thinking the last thought.

Nobody knew what Gustav was thinking because he never spoke a word after leaving the hospital.

She walked up to their building and ran up the stairs to the tenth floor; she didn't bother taking the elevator. In normal situations she would take the elevator; but today this was important.

Everyone is worried about Gustav.

Did you know that he rarely ate?

Bill has also started to think that Gustav is depressed.

Ezabel panted as she stood in front of his apartment.

After a taking a few deep breathes she raised her arm and knocked her knuckles against the dark brown door. After a few minutes the door opened to reveal Bill with his hair straightened down; normally she would laugh at Bill and tease him about his hair, but today she brushed past him and into the apartment.

"W-where is h-he?" Ezabel panted.

"Did you run a mile or something," Bill questioned, "And he's in his room as per usual."

"I r-ran up the s-stairs f-from the lobby."

"Gott."

Ezabel kicked off her shoes and started to walk to Gustav's bedroom.
"Alles Gute," Bill stated as he watched his friend walk into the room.

Ezabel shut the door quietly behind her and almost teared up when she saw Gustav lying on his bed with his hands over his face.

"Out Bill."

Ezabel shook her head and crept up to his bedside and whispered, "I'm not Bill."

To that Gustav turned over onto his other side and Ezabel held in a sigh prior to getting down to her knees; she shook her head. Why did this have to happen to the one boy that she loved the most?! Was it karma for rejecting Gustav two years earlier?

"Gustav, please, turn around."

Gustav lay silently still; which broke Ezabel's heart.

She was the one person he never ignored. And now he was ignoring her at his time of need.

Ezabel wasn't surprised to find tears sliding down the sides of her face; she would cry a river for Gustav. She was glad that her sobbing was silent. She just wanted to be by his side.

After ten long and gruelling minutes Gustav turned around and stated, "Bel. Don't."

She shook her head, "Don't what?"

"Don't waste your tears."

That made her tears run faster.

"A-are you a-also going to say don't waste my love?" Ezabel cried as she sprung up from the floor.

Without waiting for an answer she fled his room and hurriedly put on her shoes.

"Bel, meine Gott!" Bill gasped, "What happened."

All Ezabel could do was shake her head and run to the door; she quickly pulled open the door and ran out of the apartment. He was suffocating her.

Her love for him was killing her heart.

She ran to the staircase and down multiple flights of stairs before collapsing to the cold landing; she hugged her knees up to her chest and sobbed. Her tears racked her body.

How did he even know she was crying in the first place?

She heard the thundering of footsteps coming down the stairs above her and she pressed herself against the wall. The person soon after came to a halt near her.

The person bent down to his knees and whispered, "I didn't mean to hurt you. Fuck. I hate when I hurt you."

Ezabel looked up and through her tears she saw Gustav looked down at her worriedly.
"Gusti, is that really you?"

"The one and only."

With that she slapped his arm spluttering, "What the hell is wrong with you?"

Gustav was taken aback.

"It's all my fault; everything is."

Ezabel shook her head, "You were only being stupid."

"My stupidity almost killed more than a few people."

"But you didn’t so why? Why!"

"I don't know. I guess I deserve nothing. After all I am stupid."

"Gustav shut up!" Ezabel whined, "It's my fault."

Gustav gave her an incredulous look, "What are you talking about?"

"This all happened to get back at me. I rejected you being stupid two years ago."

"Bel! This wasn't your fault. Meine Gott! Never think that again. Ever."

"But…I really loved you two years ago; but I was so scared."

Ezabel wasn't scared about opening up to Gustav; mainly because he was Gustav. The one who stole her heart.

"Do you still love me?" Gustav whispered.

Ezabel nodded.

Gustav smiled to nobody in particular and leaned in to give her a kiss on the forehead; that's when she heard his stomach growl.

What a way to ruin the moment.

"Sorry," Gustav sheepishly laughed.

"Let's go buy something to eat," Ezabel grinned.

"Are you sure? I've been wearing these clothes for three days straight."

Ezabel shrugged, "I don't care. You are all I care about."

With that Gustav stood up and put out his hand; which Ezabel grabbed onto.

He pulled her up and they started walking down the stairs hand in hand.

When they reached the lobby Ezabel's cell started vibrating.

In annoyance she answered her phone, "Hello?"

"You did it girlfriend!" Bill laughed joyously into her ear.

"Ja. Bye."

She ended the phone call and put her phone into silent mode.

Nothing was going interrupt her first date with Gustav.

Feedback comments?
I wrote this last night at two in the morning for a friend of mines who adores Gustav.

Subject: Re: Cry A River Wed Nov 12 2008, 23:19

ah mein gott!!!
amazing<the one and only word for it
its so emotional!!!
brilliant

Subject: Re: Cry A River Thu Nov 13 2008, 18:26

awwwww
it was so sweet.
i lovd ..probably u shud get used to this comment of mine Smile