Kiss Me and Tell Me It's True: EPILOGUE

okay guys here is another story. its a really short one though, but i have been feeling a bit down lately and this story has all my negativity in it.
I sincerely hope you guys like it
Love
Pav

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A precious tear gleamed in the dark as the lights from the television fell on her dark face. She was not watching any soap opera that made her so emotional. No. Bill Kaulitz caused her to do so. Every time his face appeared on TV, on billboards, on posters or when their songs played on the radio she faced this emotional turmoil. It was something so personal, even childish, but she never could let go.

Suddenly she heard loud yelling, courtesy her elder brother Andy. “STOP crying will you, not for this bastard at least! It was a long time ago angel and I do not think he even remembers anything.”

For seven years, Angel had waited – waited for him to come back, because he had promised he would. However, seven years had gone by faster than seven milliseconds and at the end of all those years of waiting, she was on the brink of giving up her hope.

“Look Angel” Andy spoke, this time in a softer tone, because she was crying uncontrollably “Don’t do this sis. He’s famous and he’s not coming back”

“Andy please, please don’t sat that,” she begged not bothering to wipe the steady stream of saline tears off her cheeks. She lived on the last words he had said to her and if they were all a lie she didn’t want to know

Crying she got up and switched off the TV set. The interview had gotten over, Tokio hotel had said their good byes, and Bill Kaulitz’s face had disappeared. In the darkness, she made her way to her room and locked herself inside. Old memories filled her head again making her nauseated. Her heart throbbed with the pain she carried with her. The agony of knowing Bill Kaulitz, yet being uncertain of whether he remembered her or not killed her inside. She had known the Kaulitz twins ever since she was five. She had spent the most wonderful times with them – playing, eating, studying, goofing around, and even sleeping. In that process, she had started liking Bill. Many called it puppy love, including her own mother (when she was alive) but even at that age she knew it was deeper than that. Now at the age of 17, she knew exactly how deep it was – Bill Kaulitz had become her everything.

Angel where are you?” a 12 year old Bill Kaulitz called out for his best friend. He walked all alone in the garden feeling anxious and impatient.

She giggled standing behind the bushes that made her invisible to everyone, unless they were
inside the house.

“Angel” he called again feeling flustered. it was not a time for games; he needed to tell her something urgently.

She doubled up silently taking pleasure in her prank – in making him wait. However, he caught her. her sweet voice traveled to him from under the bushes and he went t surprise her.

“You can’t hide from me, I’ll always know where you are” he smiled inches away from her. she smiled back and with his help came out into the open, brushing the grass off her skirt.
“Where’s Tom?”

“he’s inside” Bill replied looking at the adjacent house, “I need to tell you something”

“What?”

“I can’t tell this to anyone, but Tomi said it was okay if I told you”

“What Bill?”

“I am going”

“Going? Going where?”

“Going to become famous”

“You’re going to leave me?”

He didn’t give a straight reply, but continued, “I promise I’ll come back after I get famous”

“Is Tomi going with you?”

“Ja”

Her voice was wavering as tiny droplets of tears fell from her eyes “You are going to forget me Bill”

“No I will not,” he said defensively feeling annoyed. “I said I will come back and then we’ll see the whole world together”

Those were the last words that had made her smile when he had spoken them to her and those very words made her cry each year after that. Every time she thought about him and his promise she cried, and a small piece of her trust in him tore away from her. He was 12 when he had last seen her, what were the chances that he even remembered her.

Maybe Andy did say the right thing; maybe forgetting him was her best option.
But really – could she?

That was so good Pav, and so sweetly heart wrenching! Just so sad!! Looking forward to more!

omggggggg i LOVE you this a wonderful story and its just the beging more pwssssssssss xxxxxxx

more pls... i like it, cuz its not like a normal fan, its something from the past... more please!!

CHAPTER 2


3 years ago, Andy had bought concert tickets for Angel, to show her how the twins had changed. He had sent her thinking she would come back with a changed mind. That she would finally understand that Bill was not, not now nor ever, coming back to her. Instead, she had come back with the same hope she had saved for such a long time.
Bill had not even glanced at her during the whole concert, even though she was in the front row, but somehow her heart had convinced her, that he did not get a chance to come to her. She had held his eyes just once, but he still had not shown any traces of recognition.
Andy had gotten furious over it, but somewhere in his own mind, he knew she was not faking her love. He respected her love because he had seen her with Bill, but her stepmother never got it.

“Stop wasting your time over these pathetic 19 year olds and do some work. You are not such a pretty princess that he would remember you anyway. So get your ass inside your room and study. Because I will not bear your painful self forever alright”

Her comment had stung Angel causing her to lock herself inside her room for weeks without any contact with her family. With much persuasion she used to let Andy in, but otherwise no. he feared for her, because it felt like she was rotting from inside. All those years of waiting in vain had caused pain and darkness to breed inside her. She was almost fading away.

“Please Bill; tell me you’ll come back. Pleas Bill you promised me” she cried in front of his poster.
In anger, she got hold of her diary and ripped the pages she had written on him.

“I hate you, I hate you, I HATE YOU,” she screamed into the night. Why was it so hard for her to let go off him and his memories. Was it that she did not want to let them go or was it that their bond had been so strong even though they were so young?
With immense trouble, she got up and went to the tiny bookrack that she had. There was a black colored diary in it with silver threads running on it in various directions. It was the last thing Tom had given her before leaving, kind of a parting gift. On the last page were scribbled a few verses.

Du wirst für mich - immer heilig sein
Ich sterb - für unsere Unsterblichkeit
Meine Hand - von Anfang an
über Dir - Ich glaub an Dich
Du wirst für mich - immer heilig sein

Undersigned Bill Kaulitz

A teardrop fell from her eyes again, wetting her already dampened skin. Did he even remember whom he had written those words to for the first time?

“You are a liar! A FUCKING LIAR!” she yelled looking at him. His beautiful eyes willing her to love him, but she held her love back. “You make me want to hate you for the things you make me go through. Why can’t I get myself to hate you? Just give me a reason,” she cried
Nevertheless, no answers came her way. It was just another poster, like so many others across Germany. She cried and cried feeling alone and cold…hoping wishing that one-day; Bill would hold her in his arms.

Aww that was so sad!! You made tears come to my eyes!!! That was beautifully written and I'm lookin forward to more!

CHAPTER 3


“There is good news for all the Tokio hotels fan lining here. They have just announced that their Europe tour, starting this Saturday has been extended and also, before the official tour kicks off, they’ll be doing a free concert especially for their fans in Magdeburg.”

Angel’s heart skipped a beat. Was she dreaming? They were actually doing a free show here. She did not want to dream such things…and if it were so, it had to stop, there and then. Soon enough her arm was hurting rather badly. She detached her nails from her skin and rubbed the newest wounds. Two days later, she again found herself glued to the radio, this time with Andy, when the RJ spoke about Tokio hotel again.

“Okay folks the Magdeburg dates have been preponed so you’ll get to see Tokio hotel –

“No Angel” Andy firmly said switching the radio off

“Andy please”

“Why do you torture yourself?”

“Let me see him one last time. Just the last time”

“What do you mean last time?”

“I’ve given up – that’s what I mean by last time”

He looked at her stoically, not able to understand how that child’s mind worked. Was she just going to let go off all her feelings? Was it honestly that easy? Her room was full of posters of that boy, her diary was full of pages on him, and she was just going to give up! Yes, it was true that he had never fully supported her when it came to the trust she had in the promises Bill had made, but he still knew how much she loved him.

Angel kept her tears inside her. She knew she never truly would be able to let go off her love in Bill. But, it was something he had never promised. He had promised he would come back, as a friend, not as a lover. She did not even know if he had loved her when he had left. She had chosen to love him.

“7 years and now you’re giving up?”

“I am not left with a second choice”

OO!!! That was really sad. This whole story is sad but it's still so captivating and amazing!!!!! Definitely looking forward to more!!! <3!!!

Just caught up with the last 2 chappies

I hope this time Bill will notice her and atleast talk to her

more when you can please =]

CHAPTER 4


It was the day of the concert. Finally, the day had arrived when she would leave all her childish memories behind her and forget that she ever knew the Kaulitz twins. She knew she had signed up for something difficult, but it was not impossible.
The whole day she watched Tokio hotel videos on you tube, almost savoring those few moments, because she had vowed she would not give them a second glance. She had already locked all their DVD’s in her cupboard along with the diary Tom had given her. All that was left were the posters on her wall and the songs on her computer. Her tears glands never remained dry that morning, because she cried so much. But by the time she was two hours away from the concert, she had contained herself. Putting some eye pencil to hide her puffy eyes, she headed downstairs where Andy was waiting for her already.

“Okay, sis?” he asked concernedly

She nodded slowly, not meeting his eyes. The ride to the venue was quiet. Andy’s friend was the assistant organizer of the whole event, so getting into the front row was not a problem for her. When she got off the car, Andy spoke “Please try not to cry Angel”.

“I love you bro.” she smiled and walked off to find Robert. She could see him somewhere in the distance. He took her to the front, clasping his hands on his ears because all the girls were screaming so loud.

“Just call me if you need anything okay” he said cheerfully and went immediately to solve some troubling matters. It was an open-air concert and the stage was really close to the front rows. After some waiting, there was a loud bang, followed by an announcement.

“Unfortunately Tokio hotel have not been able to make it to this concert. The inconvenience is severely regretted. Their friends would be playing for you instead of them”

The audience groaned. Angel felt numb. Life did not have to be so unfair. All around girls screamed in disappointment and the chanting for Tokio hotel grew louder, until it got overbearing. That very second guitar sounds burst into the arena and Tom walked on stage playing the tune of breakaway. Georg joined him on stage and then Gustav, who walked to his seat behind the drums. After the music came the voice – Bill Kaulitz.

Crying was like an automated reaction she had whenever she saw that beautiful creature in front of her. Not bothering to wipe them off she closed her eyes and took in every word he said. She sang some of the verses. Rescue me made her cry harder, she wanted to shout out to him, tell him how much he needed to rescue her. For the first time he sang the English versions of their songs in Germany. There was a point to her self-control after which she could not take in anything else and just as she was about to leave, he started singing sacred.

“Remember to me you’ll be forever sacred
I am dying but I know our love will live.
Your hand above, like a dove over me
Remember, to me you’ll be forever sacred”

She stood rooted on her spot as his eyes fell on her. Electricity shot up her legs, making her numb. Her mind was buzzing as if it was a bee nest. On stage, he walked towards her place, not breaking the eyes contact, and bent down.

The others girls around her screamed, but she herself could barely breathe. Something happened between them at that moment. He could not get his eyes off her. His head was getting heavier with thoughts and memories that had not occurred to him in a while.
He did not even realize that he had stopped singing, until Tom kicked him. In just one minute she vanished, when he turned around to look at her, she was not there anymore. Things just did not seem right.


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come on come on come on come on!!! im hoooked ... more more more please!!!!

That was good hun, really well written and very captivating! Looking forward to more!

CHAPTER 5


Tom had never been so annoyed with his own brother like he was that night. He had been so foolish.

“Bill, you idiot!” he yelled at super sonic level. “You’re not supposed to stop singing in the middle of a concert you know!”

“But Tom, it was her. She was there. I saw her. I touched her hand. She was really there!”

“Who?” Georg asked with raised eye brows. Everyone was annoyed at Bill for messing the show. “You know had it not been for Tom and his singing, we would’ve been in a real dump yard. And since when have girls started distracting you so much?”

“Tom – “ Bill began

“I know Bill, I know she was there. I saw her too. She was right in front of me”

“Who is this girl?” Gustav asked calmly

“Remember we told you about our childhood best friend once? She was there at the concert. And blown over by that happiness, this fool forgot to sing the rest of the song”

“Sorry, but I was shocked”

“Wasn’t her name Angel?” Georg asked frowning, as he remembered her name.

“Ja!” Bill replied excitedly. “She remembers us, she remembers us Tomi!”

“Yes Bill, she does” he laughed at his twins childish behavior.

“Can we go to meet her? please, please Tom?”

“It’s late Bill, she must have slept by now. We’ll go to meet her tomorrow alright? We’ll give her a nice big surprise”

“But – “

“Bill” Tom gave him a warning look

“Oh fine” the other grunted angrily. He went inside his own room and patiently waited for Tom and the others to retire to their respective rooms. Half an hour later when he was sure the coast was clear he snuck out of his room. He had spent 7 years away from the one person who gave him butterflies just with one thought, but no more.
No one could keep him away from his Angel anymore.

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Thanks a lot Chloe and Charlene for reading this story. love you both a lot. please keep on reading and commenting. Sorry this is a small update. Enjoy

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
*jumps on bed* the maid thinks im crazy!! i think im crazy!!!!
Tom, dont stop Bill.
GO BILL GO!!!!

MEHR MEHR MEHR, Im not even going to say please, im crazy fo rmore.

Aww, GO BILL GO!!! He's like the night in shining armour off to rescue the damsel in distress!!! It's cute how they remember her as well...that'll be a nice surprise More please!!!

CHAPTER 6

Okay Charlene...you wanted another one...there you are. Also Chloe thank you so much for reading all my stories. Love you. Please comment. It's essential for my metabollism you know

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Angel cried her guts out at the dinner table. It was close to 1 am in the morning, but she refused to quieten herself.

Let all the pain go away. She begged with her own self, but the pain never went away. Andy sat by her side, trying to comfort her. hoping that she would stop giving herself such a rough time. He felt anxious and annoyed after she narrated what has happened at the concert and why she had reached an hour too early.

“Oh god, please Angel wipe those tears away” he begged feeling miserable himself

She took in a deep breath and willed her tears to stop just for her brother. Wiping her cheeks she said “Sorry, I promised I wont cry”

“Tell you what kiddo, go to bed right now and tomorrow we’ll have a superb day alright. I feel like I don’t even know you anymore and there is so much stuff I need to tell you. So we’ll spend some quality sibling time. How does that sound?”

“Thanks Andy, it sounds wonderful” she managed to forge a smile. Andy kissed his little sister on the forehead and made to the kitchen. Meanwhile there was a knock on the door.

“I’ll get it” she called to Andy and walked slowly. She hadn’t even changed her dress from the concert. Wiping the black make up from her face to make herself look a tiny bit more presentable than she was looking at that moment, she opened the door.

She got the shock of her life.

Bill Kaulitz stood in front of her as solid as herself. She sure ha to be hallucinating. This couldn’t be true. He couldn’t be there.

“Angel who is it?” Andy asked, moving towards the door.

Silence

“Angel – “he too stopped when he saw Bill on the front porch, waiting to be given a warm reception from Angel.

“Is this real?” the dazed girl asked, no one in particular.

Andy nodded at his sister and then gave Bill a stone cold look. Involuntarily Bill shivered when his eyes met Andy’s. “Come in” he said before vanishing into one of the halls leading to his room.

“Angel” Bill finally spoke, not having moved an inch.

She bit her lip hard to stop her impulse to scream. Tears blinded her vision as she sniffed. Her head began to ache. She didn’t want to believe that he was there. Things like that didn’t happen to her. Was life being good to her for once.

Then it happened – her senses began to fade. She blacked out.

awww she fainted!!! don't blame Andy for being an asshole to Bill, if I was Angel I would've slammed the door in his face!!!! Looking forward to mroe hun!!

^oh dont you worry about that. Bill will get his shareof hatred hun.

YaY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and oh no she fainted. more more more please, ich beg dich!! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Vielen Dank! mehr bitte

CHAPTER 7



Thank god, he was there to hold her. Thank god, he was there to or else she would have ended up with stitches on her head. That guilt stricken face of his looked at her with a flicker of remorse. Carrying her over to the couch, he checked her pulse. He really was not sure of what else to do. He had never attended to any unconscious person before. He saw her chest move up and down, indicating her breathing action. Sighing himself, he went into the hall where Andy had disappeared. He did not know which room was his, so knocked on all three rooms that were there, except for the bathroom door. He still remembered it was the bathroom door. Before he could marvel on his memory, Andy poked his head out of one of the rooms.

“What?”

“Uh hi – Uhm…Andy, Angel kinda fainted” he said feeling very uncomfortable in that situation; maybe he should have taken Tom's advice and come with him in the morning.

“Fainted? What the fuck do you mean fainted?” he repeated in shock and darted out in the front room. “Jesus this is what happens when you knock at the front door after 7 years!”

“I’m sorry; I know I should’ve come earlier. I am really sorry” he apologized

“Don’t apologize to me you dumb fuck. Apologize to her when she wakes up!” he yelled. “Ugh! Why did you have to come! Right when she was ready to give up on you, you show up on the fucking door. Listen now Kaulitz, don’t you dare make any more promises to her alright and if you do make them, make sure you fulfill them, because if you hurt her again, I will hunt you and kill you”

“She waited for us all these years? She remembered us?” Bill asked foolishly

It caused Andy to get even angrier “Remembered? She bloody well remembered you. She saw the whole star search for you. Cried endlessly when you lost in that show. Bought all the fucking CD's she could lay her hands on. Plastered her walls with your posters and prayed when you fell ill. She spent half her days inside the church Bill, who does that? And then you ask me if she remembered you?”

The boy was speechless.

“7 years you didn’t care Kaulitz, why now?” his accusation was unmistakable.

“I did…I swear I did. I thought she would’ve forgotten us” Bill replied guiltily. He looked at her with a longing in his eyes. For so long he had waited to meet her, but she was lying there unconscious right in front of his eyes.

“Yeah you know, easy to forget you when your face is plastered on all streets of Germany” Andy snubbed.

Bill did not say anything, but he wondered he had done.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!! wake up wake up, yalk to him!!! oh and Andy, you re kinda right about the past, but now he s here, so shut up!!! more pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaasssssssssseeeeeeeee.
Bitte bitter, mehr, schnell!!

Yeah Andy, you kick his ASS!!! Woot woot, get him. How dare he act like that and then just pop back into her life and expect everything to be ok...fuck off! I hope she kicks his ass as well, i would! Regardless of whether it's Bill fucking Kaulitz or not!

i've just read all the chapters
i'm loving this story
pls more more...
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i'm addicted to drugs...i mean...TOKIO HOTEL...

CHAPTER 8


Slowly everything came back into focus. She could faintly see Andy and then Bill cane into the view. Her eyes flickered a bit, and both the people focused their attention to her.

“Please don’t faint again,” Bill begged. She looked pleadingly at her brother, who squeezed her hand and told her it was true. He gave a little kiss on the forehead and spoke “I’ll leave you two to catch up now. Call me if you need anything okay?” even though he was highly annoyed at Bill, he gave in to his sisters happiness and left.

“I’m sorry Angel” Bill apologized shamefacedly. His words touched her senses. She lost herself for a minute again, but his touch kept her from blacking out again.

“Where’s Tom?” she asked, just as she had asked when he had told her was leaving 7 yrs ago.

“He’s back at the hotel…probably wiping his tears, because he just won’t admit how insanely happy he was to see you at the concert” he replied “He doesn’t want to cry when he sees you”

“But when will I see him?”

“Now of course! When we go to the hotel. You can meet everyone – Georg, Gustav even Dunja!” but his smile suddenly vanished. “You will come with me wont you?”

Suddenly after such a long time of waiting, her ego was interfering. Why should she go with him at his fancy? Perhaps he did deserve a punishment for all that he made her go through.

“Please Angel, please don’t say no. I have been dying to meet you all this while. Tom had been dying to meet you, please do not say no” he begged and her heart just melted. It was not for Bill though it was for Tom. She had always loved Bill, it was true, but she had always been closer to Tom, like his and only his younger sister.

“Of course I will” she replied and hugged Bill. “It feels nice to see again”

It was four in the morning at that time and his cell phone suddenly rang. Tom was on the other side

Where in god’s name are you Bill?”

“Uhm…okay don’t shout at me, but I am at Angel's place”

“I TOLD YOU NOT TO DISTURB HER!”

“Cool it Tomi, I didn’t disturb her, she…was awake okay. How did you get to know I wasn’t in my room anyway?”

“I’m your twin, I just know” he replied in a fury. “Now you, get your ass back inside this hotel and let her rest. We’ll bring her here tomorrow”

“Nein...why can’t I bring her now?”

“It’s 4 am in the morning. I certainly do not think and would entertain the idea of letting you bring his sister to a hotel at this hour, because in case you did not notice, she needs to rest, and so do you.”

“But – Tom!” he wailed, “Okay talk to her” and he gave her the phone. With shaking hands, she placed it near her ear

“Tom” she spoke

“Hello Angel” suddenly all his anger drifted away into an unknown land and all he wanted to do was scream with joy. “Okay don’t be mad at me for suggesting that you come here tomorrow instead of right now, because I really don’t think Andy would like it”

“You remember Andy?”

“Of course I do kid…what do you think, I spent as much time with him as I did with you”

“Do not call me kid…” she laughed“, you sound like you are 30 years old”

“Okay those are not acceptable, but do me a favor and send that idiot back to the hotel. He will listen to you.”

“Okay…see you tomorrow”

Bill shrunk his nose and complained “But why can’t you come now?” and then he started jumping like a 10 year old child throwing tantrums.

“If you do this I won’t even come tomorrow”, she threatened, which kept him shut. An hour later Tom sent a car to pick Bill, and with that a brilliantly emotional and nauseatic day ended.