...Life's Not Fair...

LULU...seee??? xD....A promise is always a promise...a bit late but still today I promised you again and I did it xD....

So it's here....and um...Lu you haven't seen 3rd chapter yet xD...remember I added a chapter...but you have to wait ....BTW you know how I changed some parts...well a quote was there but since I left the name it had before the quote didn't fit 'kayyy?

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Summary: Lea's life takes a whole new aspect...From the bad, it goes to worse but then it goes to good...but not the best...She doesn't love easily...but when she does one time or another...complications arise...

Rating: PG13

Warnings: Well there are some swear words...I dunno if there will be some of those scenes but they won't be on here dw...


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What A Way To Start The New Year...&...Some Presents Along The Way...



2nd January 2008.


I can’t believe, I am going to leave this place! The place I have called home, for the last 13 years! I don’t have the heart to just leave. I just want to go in my bed, under the fluffy quilts that keep me warm, with a cup of hot chocolate, in front of the T.V, watching a movie with my family.


I guess we’ll do that in Germany! But Germany isn’t my home! I was so sure that life was going to be good now, but I got mistaken because here I am, packing the last few things in my luggage for tomorrow. Tomorrow, 3rd January! What a nice way to start the New Year, moving to Germany.


I don’t have anything against Germany really. Actually I love the country although, I have never went there! But, they have a nice culture, not to mention two hot guys there but still, that won’t cheer me up! Sure, I am going to live in Germany, actually in Loitsche home of the Kaulitz twins, but this place holds so many memories, good and bad that either, I don’t want to lose.


Earlier today, I met all my friends. Well, I had fun for the last night here! We laughed, we teased each other but when the night was reaching its end, I was depressed again. I’ll only see them again tomorrow, and then I’ll have to wait, for I don’t know how much, to see them in person again.


Probably I’ll see them again in September, before school starts again, after the summer holidays. Tomorrow is going to be teary. I am going to miss Zoë and Lexci the most. I just hope that, we will still be friends. Oh gosh, in spite of announcing, my depressed self to someone I kind of forgot, that you don’t even know my name.


Well, my name is Analeigh, but only my mother calls me that, and only when she’s angry. I either go by Ana or Lea, but I like Lea better. So, I decided that I should, keep a kind of journal. Not with the “Dear Diary…” and stuff like that, just kind of like telling someone my feelings, and what my day has been about, no corny stuff.


I am 13. Yeah, yeah I know what anyone would say, when I say, I am only 13 years old, “You’re still a child and bla bla bla!” but at least, I don’t look them! I as many say, look like a 15 or 16 year old teen. Anyway I think since, you don’t have any eyes, you should know how I look like, just for the record.


I’ll give the basics. I'm 1.75 cm that is roughly about, 5’7. I have pale skin with few freckles. My hair, which was dark brown is now dyed black, is straight and mid-length, and I have hazel eyes, but sometimes I wear green, or violet contacts. Oh and I wear mostly black.


You should see our group, well it won’t be our anymore, it will be theirs but still for now it is our, it is filled with different people, and different styles. I am kind of the rocker type, there is the kind of emo type, and then there is, as Lexci refers to it, the “normal” type, which are those, who for them are described as normal, in four simple words, They love happy colours! Just kidding but Lexci says that she, is the normal type.


Anyway, I ‘ll have to resume packing and go to bed, because the flight is at 9 and something you should know about me is, that I love my bed which sadly, I won’t see or have anymore. Oh, well I love any bed that is comfortable, and that I can sleep in.


Anyway, since I love to sleep, and I should stop rambling on you, this portable typing journal, and I being a bit lazy haven’t finished packing, I think I should stop and do what I must do! Shit it is already 1, that means stop rambling. Bye, bye portable typing journal, I’ll think a name for you, another time!


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3rd January 2008.



Hey, I’m back! I am not in my beloved country anymore! I am in Germany! Ok, so today was one of my worst days, ever. This is what happened.


I woke up at 6:30, because my mum had been screaming for a while, to get me up! What can I do? I wanted to stay in my bed!!! Anyway, she wanted to be at the airport, two hours before our flight, so I had to be extremely fast, in washing up and stuff. Anyway we got there, and I got so annoyed at staying with my mum there, going on and droning some more, on how I should wake up early.


So, I decided I’d go, and search for my friends; they were coming to see me, at the airport. We ended up going into the shops, that where scattered around the airport. Many of our time, were spent into ‘Claire’s’. The guys were just being assholes, as always.


They even picked up stuff, and tried it on! Too bad it was girl stuff, some of them looked really good on them! Anyway when the time came, that my flight was only 15 minutes away, from being called we went back, to where my parents and siblings were. Have I told you about my siblings? Geez, I don’t remember!


Anyway, I have two siblings. One only a year younger than me, his name is Taylor. And, then I have a sister, who is seven years old. Her name is Danielle. So, back to what happened today. I got the bag I was going to use as a hand luggage, and fished in it for some things.


I had gotten them, something to remember me by. I don’t want them to forget me! Stupid, I know. But, it just kind of makes me, a bit reassured that we’ll still be friends, even if there are many miles, and a sea to cross.


Anyways, I think I’ll write what exactly happened. That way, I’ll never forget the words, those words that tore me up.


‘Lea, why are we here? There is still like 15 minutes, before your flight is called!’ said Lexci annoyingly.
‘Geez, relax I don’t already, want to leave you guys! I just, I have something for you guys!’ I said.
‘What, but you just gave us Christmas presents!’ said Zoë.
‘So?’ I said.

‘Yay more presents!’ said Damien.
‘Honestly, Damien you can never get sick of presents!’ I said with a chuckle.
‘Yup! I can’t!’ he said, a bit proudly.
‘I don’t like that prideful tone! I think I’ll just see some hot guy on the plan,e and give it to him or something!’ I said teasing Damien; I honestly think that that boy lives for presents.

‘But, that’s not fair! You bought that present for me, how do you know that that guy would like it, and well…didn’t you buy that for me to remember you or something by! How will I remember you?’ he said. Oh I love teasing, especially him.
‘You always have my Christmas present to remember me by!’ I said.

‘Fine, whatever!’ he said.
I started handing out the “presents”. I gave everyone their own present, and the last was Damien.
‘Here’ I said, and gave him the present.
‘Thank you!’ he said and scooped me up in a hug.
I hadn’t expected this, so to just lift the spirit a notch I said.

‘Damien, as much as I appreciate you hugging me, I think that what is important, is that I get to breath!’
It was a bit over the top, and I said it in kind of gasps.


Anyways, so I got the girls, a necklace and bracelet each, and all of them had a different style, so they’d match their style. For, the guys it had proved hard, I got them these black bracelets that well, they weren’t like too much fancy or like too much common, you could wear them with any type of clothing.


Anyway, it really got teary. I already miss them. It was so hard to say goodbye because well, I was leaving for another country, were I wouldn’t see them every day! Not even on a weekly bases, which that was with the guys but oh well, I’ll have to accept that.


So, the plane ride was one word, and that was BORING!!! There were some little kids shouting, and after a while it got too much loud for me,, and I put on my ipod. I listened to, I don’t know how much songs! It was too much boring for my taste. I was in a window seat, and that was bad. See, I am afraid of heights. Well, not all heights, but when I saw the clouds under me, it got really scary and all I could think was, what if something happens and the plane crashes or something? Thank God, that didn’t happen.


Oh, I think you noticed the “anyways” thing! Sorry but I’m starting to use it, like all the time. So (a bit of a change won’t hurt), when we got here, at least I found something good that had happened. The only one mind you of the day! I got the biggest room, after my parents of course.


It was painted black, on the ceiling was painted a large white skull, and on the walls small white skulls, and red stars. There was of course still room, for my posters for TH and of course, Daniel Radcliffe. I dunno if I have told you about him. Anyway, he is the second hottest guy in the world, after Bill of course, and he is a great actor in my opinion.


So, anyway the furniture was dark as well, dark brown it was really dark, that you couldn’t say if it was black or brown. Anyway, I decided I’d go exploring, and see what there is here, like places to hang out and stuff, only that brings me where I am.


And that is lost! That is right, I am LOST!!! I am in this little park; it’s really nice, only I am too shy to ask anyone if they know where I am, and to give me directions. I only stopped because my legs are killing me, and since I have you with me, I thought I’d write in you.


Oh, I forgot, I have to give you a name! Well, I thought about it and, I am going to name you Billy for Bill. So, I think I am going to go and try to find my way back. I’ll write in you when and IF, I get back! Oh, I sure hope that I get back. Bye, Bye Billy.



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I dunno if there's any changes in this...i can't remember =/...Hp youu like xD....

=D my fav fan fic form yours mar =]

i m rly excited to see what will happen in the chappies i didn t read xD

so mehr when you can bitte xD

oh it's great and i love it.
really like her character xD sorta my type. even i would be shy to ask people were i am if im lost lolz neway.

Continue as soon as u can please. thankya.